people look at me and think that I have a billion doors open to me, that I have the world at my fingertips. the truth is i'm fighting to keep those last few doors from slamming in my face. sure my dads a doctor, wow he must be smart. yep he is, he spend over 10 years going to school learning, that doesn't mean that i'm smart or that he has lots of money to spend for my education.
what i'm most afraid of is that I will turn into the mormon stereotype, or more specifically like my parents . I look at those people who tell me that I should go to BYU and get married and have a billion kids right NOW, well I see that you did that and you don't look to happy to me.
Why is there this huge rush to get married and to do everything now. you have the whole world in front of you, and time. At this point in my life I don't think that Marriage or kids are in the cards for me. from what I see from the world, Happily ever after, or even happily for a year isn't very realistic. people hate each other, they sleep in separate rooms, there kids are the evil.
I'm scared of the world and of the future. I just want to press pause and stay where I am forever. does anyone know how to get to Neverland!?
Anonymous said...You are such a good writer, Emsters. Life after high school is scary, so just don't do what I did. I can be one of those people you can avoid being like...meaning, take some time off after high school if you want to REALLY think about what you want to do, and think about how the job market is for that job too. VERY IMPORTANT. Otherwise you may become 24 and still be living with your parents. <---suicide for your reputation!You're a smart girl. DO what makes YOU happy, and who cares what your friends want you to do.
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