catching up.

       I have been sick this past week, with the usual spring sniffles. symptoms; fever, snotty nose, caughing, fatigue (fancy word for being tired a lot), watery eyes. an upside is that I get to have an excuse to stay in bed, and not go to mutual or church. don't worry, I am not going inactive I just don't like my ward. besides going to church doesn't automatically make you a great person. thats one stereotype I can't stand. but don't worry i won't bore you with church talk. An upside to being sick is that I'm drinking a tone of water (this is exciting to me, because I normally barely ever drink water), the down side is that I have to go to the bathroom about every 10 minutes.

If you were wondering This is what I looked like this week when I slept. I'm only kidding of course, picture nostrils packed with toilet paper...snot... you get the picture.

My Senior year is wrapping up here pretty quickly, its killing me how fast it is happening. I don't want this year to end, simply because up to this point everything has been planned for me, and its pretty nice. School, work, tennis, etch... it keeps me pretty busy and has some form of order to it. once I graduate I have no plans. I have to keep working at Mcdonalds to save money for the "future." In my psychology class it discusses that in america the more you work the more depressed people become so i have that to look forward to. But honestly its not that exciting. 

Once this quarter of CBC is over, I am done with school. it scares me since i don't know if i will go back. I don't have enough money to go back to CBC next quarter so I'm done.  (at this moment I regret lending my money to a certain someone.)  All well, lesson learned. 

"living in a van, down by the river" 

chris Farley. 

RIP my ugly grandma car.

so this is the end of the road for my ugly grandma car. two days ago on argent (the devils road) it came crawling to an end in front of the school. We are now a family of 6 and 1 car that my dad needs to use for work everyday. since I'm used to being free with a car of my own. there is nothing more that I hate then asking for rides. I feel like a bumb. looks like I'm going to have to start being creative... so hello transit, hello bike, hello walking.

its hard because my schedule is so busy and I'm involved with so many things it doesn't help that I'm half way through my senior year I'm more busy than ever. I'm going to have to prioritize and cut out some of the things that I have been doing. so good by tennis, goodbye marine work outs... not even sure if ill be able to keep up with my job. hopefully I can figure it out... I'm too young to have a stroke right?

so in advance if I go missing it was that creepy guy on the transit that did it. And I expect someone to kick his A@@... its the most u could do.

one thing that this year (2012) has taught me is that the economy really does suck... no way am I ever going to get out of this house... they can make a new movie based on me called the 40 year old who never got out of the house. ( good tittle I know, you'd go see it right? ) how do people do it? My friends who is one year older than me just managed to get married and is now living in a duplex that she owns... what? as far as I knew she never had a job. I just don't get it.

new word of the week FRUSTRATED... so have fun at college to all my friends who are leaving me here in pasco.

I know what your thinking... WOW, teenage rant on a car dying. yep thats exactly what this is. I hope that you enjoyed it.

These are my friends, and I'm glad to have them. there always there to help me and to give me rides if my car dies. I would not be able to survive high school with out them. I swear I would have a mentle break down if i didn't have them. :)

This is my car! I walked out of work and found that it had been surran wrapped... I wonder who... haha. RIP car you where great to me. I will miss you. for those of you who don't know my car is dead and we can't afford a knew one. so looks like I'm walking to work.

I got a herrr cut. yep, its been a while so I decided it was time to trim the edges.
These are my two boyfriends ... naw this is me and monika. they kidnapped me and we just did some crazy things.

alright... and last but not least. IT SNOWED. A LOT. plus now of being a carless hobo I don't have to drive in the snow.

its a brand new sparkly clean year.

Id like to name this image: What you looking at?

To make up for not posting in a long time i would like to share this image that reminds me to smile, and not take life to seriously. ( I mean come on look how he dies, he got savagely attacked by a huge snake.... not good)

Along with the new year (2012) , CBC's Fall courter has begun. I look back fondly at the days when all I had to worry about was waking up on time to get to work at 4:00pm. my hope is that I will get into the swing of things and actually on track with all of my school work by week 2, considering I just received my books in the mail, which makes me a week behind.

I have a confession to make...

the reason that I don't post many blogs is that I'm afraid that I will go crazy and go on an insane hormonal women rant that will land me in room #24 in the crazy ward. it seams like when I get my fingers onto the key board and begin writing in the little brown box, all the things that annoy me, stress me out, piss me off... (ultimately the things I would like to say but shouldn't) fight to get out. trust me, I'm protecting you. I'm actually pretty proud of myself for keeping my blogs pretty clean. so think about that and stuff it into your back pocket.

any whooo. this week has been crazy... juggling family life, school, work, working out,friends recruiters,church life...

id like to think that this is just preparing me for a life of celebrity- ism or at least awesomeness.

24 day Advocare challenge results.

this post will be very short. I just wanted to post the results of my challenge.

Before:

Starting Weight (pounds): 139.0 Pnds.

Starting inches (overall) : 290.5 inches

After:

Ending Weight (pounds): 133.4 Pnds.

Ending Inches(overall):279.0 inches

Results: Weight lost (Pounds): 5.6 Pnds.

Inches Lost (overall): 11.5 Inchs.

even though it wasn't a huge result I'm still proud of what I did and am going to continue working until i get to the point I want.

thanks for the support, to all y'all.

OVERALL: (Weight loss) 16.6 Pounds.

on the bright side.

Ok, so i realize that my last post wasn't very uplifting so I'm going to write about the good things in my life at the moment. Christmas is coming up you know.

ok, so for every had ship there is a lesson to be learned. i'm grateful for the running start program, it helped me realize that college is hard, expensive and something to be proud of. taking that into consideration it has made me come to the conclusion that I am in no hurry to go full time to college after high school. Life isn't a race and I want to experience it while I can. people are in such a hurry to get married, go to college, find a job that they put off the things in life that they would like to do. ohh, ill just do that later. anybody reading this look back and see if you ever ended up doing those things. maybe you did, good job but for the majority it never happened.

who knows where I will be next year, but hopefully its something awesome. My mom got a membership to Golds gym and so far I love it. What is more motivating to go to a gym where you find the hottest guys. you know when your thinking where are all the attractive guys in the try-citues??? well, they are at the gym. mystery solved. so while I'm sitting there I get a nice view. its also a motivator to see all these people who are so fit and tough. you can find every type of body there, its really fun to see. I sound like a creeper and thats fine. :) its fun that my sisters are members too so I can go once and a while with them and do some classes.

Advocare Update: I will be finished with advocare on wednesday and will be uploading my results thursday. so start holding your breath, this is a shout out to all my fans out there...

Military update: ok, iv been going to the Marine workouts every thursday and they are actually becoming really fun, now that I'm getting more in shape. (yea Emmy) but I'm too scared to talk to the Air force recruiter (booooo emmy) you'd think that if i hung out with the marines for a few months air force would be a breez... but no i have a problem with approaching new things. I have been trying to contact them though, who would think that id have to work so hard to get ahold of them. shouldn't it be the other way around. anywhooo I promise myself (goal) that once I get to 130 pounds I will go and talk to an air force recruiter.

quarter is almost over.

to say that these last few weeks haven't been stressful would be the understatement of the year. the end of the winter quarter is here and I have about one week left. I having been working my butt off trying to pass theses college classes, since passing high school depends on it. but of course i'm pretty sure I failed all of them. I don't think that I'm smart enough to get my AA since I can't complete simple algebra without a calculator. I find out next week what my grades where and if I will be able to graduate on time. its ridicules, I'm definitely regretting doing running start and working. speaking of work. I still have a job, which is nice and not so nice at the same time. I don't like feeling manipulated (something I get a lot at home) and I definitely feel that from work.

so since my "incident" at work I get to decide to give them 100$ (did u feel the sarcasm) I have this next week off. however I'm on call, which means they call call me anytime and have me come in and work, so I have no warning before. I also am on cash suspension, So I will either be washing tables for 3 months are learning how to make some burgers. I'm hoping for the burger assembly, since i am not a huge fan of being in lobby.

the only thing that I am stressed about lately is that I'm working hard to be a good person, do the right thing, get good grades, be a good employe and such, and all these things are happening to me. not only am i getting in trouble, but people think that I'm slacking and being bad. if karma was here I would like to slap her in the face.

I'm hoping that this monday, I will be able to get back on track and get things moving towards a positive place. I'm hoping that my mom will be able to get me a membership at golds so that I can start working out. its getting harder to work out now since the weather is getting worse and people are getting busy. with a gym I wouldn't have to worry about that.

Advocare update: I have 3 days left. I'm not going to update my weight or inches lost until I'm complete done.

im kinda annoyed at myself for waisting so much money and I have learned that "programs" are not my things. Iv been having stomach pain and just feeling blah. hopefully I can get back and start eating and working out how I was before and will be able to feel better. I know that advocate has helped me jump that block I had before and Im thankful for that.