quarter is almost over.

to say that these last few weeks haven't been stressful would be the understatement of the year. the end of the winter quarter is here and I have about one week left. I having been working my butt off trying to pass theses college classes, since passing high school depends on it. but of course i'm pretty sure I failed all of them. I don't think that I'm smart enough to get my AA since I can't complete simple algebra without a calculator. I find out next week what my grades where and if I will be able to graduate on time. its ridicules, I'm definitely regretting doing running start and working. speaking of work. I still have a job, which is nice and not so nice at the same time. I don't like feeling manipulated (something I get a lot at home) and I definitely feel that from work.

so since my "incident" at work I get to decide to give them 100$ (did u feel the sarcasm) I have this next week off. however I'm on call, which means they call call me anytime and have me come in and work, so I have no warning before. I also am on cash suspension, So I will either be washing tables for 3 months are learning how to make some burgers. I'm hoping for the burger assembly, since i am not a huge fan of being in lobby.

the only thing that I am stressed about lately is that I'm working hard to be a good person, do the right thing, get good grades, be a good employe and such, and all these things are happening to me. not only am i getting in trouble, but people think that I'm slacking and being bad. if karma was here I would like to slap her in the face.

I'm hoping that this monday, I will be able to get back on track and get things moving towards a positive place. I'm hoping that my mom will be able to get me a membership at golds so that I can start working out. its getting harder to work out now since the weather is getting worse and people are getting busy. with a gym I wouldn't have to worry about that.

Advocare update: I have 3 days left. I'm not going to update my weight or inches lost until I'm complete done.

im kinda annoyed at myself for waisting so much money and I have learned that "programs" are not my things. Iv been having stomach pain and just feeling blah. hopefully I can get back and start eating and working out how I was before and will be able to feel better. I know that advocate has helped me jump that block I had before and Im thankful for that.